always happened

THIS ,

IS KILLING ME . ERGH ERGH ERGH . 

-____________-"

KBAI.

Embrace that faith

you're the imperfectionist, that i love. 

the boyfriend and i got into a little fight. not the screaming-and-crying kind of fight, but the kinda abnormal one ; there was a little misunderstanding between the two of us. I got soft , too soft then cried a little in the inside. then i told nelly about it , just for the sake to make me feel better. was tryin to be a little bit egoistic by not returning his texts , but eventually i texted him anyways. haha (-_-) i am such a failure. nonetheless, everything is sorted out. perhaps it is all because i am having my menses now and he's not really feeling well. 

alhamdulillah , it's proven that my relationship is much more important than my ego. not only my relationship with my boyfriend , but also my friends. just ask my friends around, i often apologized if i am at fault , and we won't stay 'fighting' very long heh :) 

Perhaps , just perhaps , I don't have any attitude problems , just that sometimes , people wanted to interact with me at the wrong time , and i snapped. Heh , sorry yeah ? :) I am kinda struggling these few days because of some financial problems and also my upcoming final. but yeap , these little fights of mine made me realized that struggles are required in order to survive in life because in order to stand up, you got to know what falling down feels like. 

same goes with relationship.

I always have faith that this first ( and hopefully the last ) relationship of mine will stay forever. I'll hold onto to it , and will never let go. all because I have faith in him , in me and of course , in us. :) 

to sayang , 

remember our 'I love you more' fights? 

I think I won ;) 

muchness

love at almost everything.

Aku pelik . Hmm , sejak kebelakangan ini, ada sahaja komen yang membuatkan aku terpinga-pinga. takut pun ada. Haha. Opah , Mak , Uncle , Auntie and kemungkinan besar hampir semua relatives aku pesan benda yang sama.

' jangan malukan keluarga ye '

' be a good girl there '

' study hard '

as far as I am concern, tak pernah diorang se-concern ini. tsk tsk , ada baik nya jugak diorang pesan kat aku macam tu , takdek lah aku mengilai bersosial kan? hehe :b neways , aku rasa sekarang aku lebih matang. tak mudah melenting macam dulu. next phase, dunia pekerjaan pulak. cepat je masa berlalu.

tapi kan, kenapa sekarang , aku rasa takut sangat nak berdepan dengan saudara mara aku? adakah sebab aku tidak selesa dengan diorang ? adakah? -____-" entah lah. haha. dan aku rasa aku dah kurang comel u___u sense of muchness pun dah kurang.

ergh.

esok test OMT167. tadi message en karim malam-malam buta, asking him about the test. tapi kan , i almost ended my 'thank you' text with a 'goodnight' . nasib baik sedar, kalo tak menyesal je? ahaha *awkward* :b

by the way, my WiFi connection is pissing me off. rasa geram sebab internet macam siputtttttt .

ergh.

might as well I took back my broadband package. huh. maybe because I stayed upstairs , so that's why , perhaps? but then the bill is also giving me a total headache. haih. which made me realized with my overdue debts. erk. cepat lah dapat banyak duit, senang nak langsaikan semua hutang -____-"


haha. okay, batuk dah start menggila. need medications and then rest.